I’ve always thought that I was a fairly positive person. I try to be optimistic (I can’t stand someone who’s always negative) and look on the bright side of things, speak only kindly about others and be uplifting in my conversations with other. I was even shouted out for being a positive person by my peers this week!
…and then this happened today…
I was talking to a friend and said something along the lines of, “Well, that sucks for them!” and sorta chuckled. They looked me straight in the eye and said, “Why do you have to say that? Why can’t you just be happy for yourself and not be down on them?”
I laughed it off and gave them a hard time for calling me out on my negative attitude, but when I started thinking about it, I was showing the same negative attitude and contempt that I really can’t stand. After thinking further about it, I realized that lately I’ve been having a negative attitude towards a lot of things but have been harboring it in my heart. That immediately brought Luke 6:45 to my mind, which says, “The mouth speaks what the heart is full of.” I also like the way The Message says it: “You don’t get wormy apples off a healthy tree, nor good apples off a diseased tree. The health of the apple tells the health of the tree. You must begin with your own life-giving lives. It’s who you are, not what you say and do, that counts. Your true being brims over into true words and deeds.”
So when it comes down to it, I have a heart condition in which I have waaayyy too much negativity and I need to bleed it out. I need to pluck to off like a wormy apple. I’m really glad that my friend called me on it today, because otherwise I would’ve continued allowing it to fester like a wound that sits right underneath the skin.
This week and every week from now on, I’m really going to focus on being more positive and not harboring negativity in my heart. It’s just not worth it.